It's another hot day. This year has been weird, or at least my body has been weird about the heat. Normally I sweat easily, but not this year. I'm wondering if it has anything to do with being completely off prescribed meds and birth control? But last summer I felt the heat for sure! I don't know. I'm getting older, that could also be it. So now instead of getting sweaty, I get warmer and warmer and feel super tired and migrainey until I'm in a full-blown migraine attack. I'm right at the cusp of that right now, but instead of taking some OTC meds and water and sitting up in the dark, I'm here. Tippy-tappying away cause I really love this site I've made. I don't want it to fall to the wayside cause of my health. So with that... I should really go take care of myself!

I've been in a fog all day. Went to bed too late because I couldn't decide if I needed meds or sleep. Turns out I did just need sleep, but then today.. it's definitely a migraine, I'm just so used to "fighting them off" on my own, whether that's ignoring the pain as much as I can or.. that's about it. Could also be the heat, it's like 80°F in my house, the same outside. It's "peak hours" right now though, so to save money I should wait another 2 hours before turning the air on. The fans are alright, but it's stagnant heat, so it's just blowing hot air around. Ugh. I was writing notes on my whiteboard and with each new line of writing my letters would change quite a bit. Not the usual change but the kind that makes you think different people wrote it, or the same person wrote it at different times of the day. But nope, back to back, and my handwriting looks like I stroked out a bit. I haven't added my health problems to my about me page... probably cause I don't want to glorify them or make people pity me. I don't know really, I just don't want my chronic pain and illnesses to make me who I am, although they sure do influence me a lot!! Horns on almost all my female characters for example. I explored why I do that a few years ago, and yeah, just makes sense I would be drawn to focus on the head of my subjects, to add horns and other things that symbolize pain. For one art project, I drew a girl's head with a crack running across it, and plant life was growing out of the crack. But the girl was crying, even though something beautiful came out of her. I feel that way about myself and my art all the time, but maybe in a less "my art is so pretty" and more "I'm proud of myself for making this". I'm surprised I've been able to type all this. I think it's time to rest in a dark room for awhile. Take care of yourselves, everyone, and stay hydrated on hot days!

I wanted to write more yesterday but ended up being busy with friends, which was nice. Anyone remember Flashbunny? Then it was rebranded to Hulabunny? Then Anand Duncan totally revamped the site again, removing tons of amazing art, games, and videos!! I was feeling super nostalgic the last month and went on a search for old sites I used to play on. Flashbunny was one of my faves. Hulabunny is still up but has less than half of the content. I was wondering if working for Cartoon Network had anything to do with rights to her previous work?? I couldn't find anything about why she took so much stuff down. Then again, sometimes that's what artists do! We don't always like our old stuff. There was also a forum site for Hulabunny, you could make a cute bunny avatar and dress them up! I can't remember why it didn't take off.. maybe it did, and I forgot. Maybe it just died out with so many other forum sites. Speaking of... Freewebs anyone??? Inuyasha Journey? Creating your own forum just about you (and usually just for your eyes too cause you were either too shy to share it or no one wanted to join...). After school in like 2006, I would come home from school, make 2 packs of easy mac in a glass bread pan, load up my freewebs page, and decorate the shit out of it with Digicharat artwork. I had no idea what it was, but I loved the look of it, and even had a hat that one of the characters wore. Yes I did wear it to school in 7th grade. Yes I did get bullied. No I did not wear it ever again. It was actually really sad. I'm glad I can look back on it now and shrug. My grandma bought me that goofy hat from an f.y.e. inside the mall. I think I got a Love Hina DVD that same trip too... my sweet, pure grandma. Anyway, on that hunt for old sites I remembered Flashpoint! I've gone through and favorited a bunch of flash games I used to play. A bunch of Barbie and Pollypocket games, mostly dress up and scene creator stuff. Also some Bonnie Games!! I found more online but still cool. That Halloween maze game with sick music, Trick-Or-Treat Beat, from Cartoon Network!! Those silly-ass Cartoon Cartoon Summer Resort games, with the same 1-2 songs that played over and over again, but it was all worth it for those excellent sound effects and unhinged character interactions. There was also Fox Kids games, home to the infamous Toxic Torpedo, where you play as a lil shit kid under water at the pool, farting out nasty fart bubbles on other kids. Digimon Quest To Save The Net, which was so ahead of its time. And I can't forget one of the best old school sites for kids games: Kiddonet. I had long distance friends from there just by sharing my own art and commenting on others on the drawing page of the site. It had a silly name, like The Artists Corner or something. Some reeeally talented kiddos on there back in 2005ish. I hope they all stuck with their craft or are at least doing well in life! Kiddonet eventually became GirlSense, and then that shut down around 2012 I think. I hope more kid-friendly sites are being created, because there's so much more than YouTube and everything else kids have these days.

I used to be really good at journaling. Not that they looked particularly nice but I was good about keeping track of life through journal entries. They were usually impulsive, raw, and scatter-brained. No real structure, bullet lists, to-dos, cons/pros; nothing like that. It was more like word vomit and a bit of visual noise. Messy, sporadic, unfiltered. I would like some of those elements to carry over into how I journal now, but because this is online, a lot of personality might be missing (until I'm more comfortable with coding, for now I'm still learning the basics!) So instead of frantic handwriting that's barely legible, it will all be legible!!